泝流光

The firework display has finished so I decide to write something. However...is this the right thing to post on the first day of the year?! Though it's about saying goodbye to the past and moving on, the person who says so will soon face his biggest nightmare/blessing of his past.... The first episode of Sherlock Season 3 is to be broadcast on BBC one today, which means John's "past" will show up soon. XD

This blog is the sequel to the video "Many Happy Returns" produced by BBC. "Comments Disabled" in the end really knocks me down.

By the way, it takes great efforts to properly move on.

Or maybe i should just move on first and do the proper part later.

Happy New Year.


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Many Happy Returns
生日快樂

So, Greg came around the other day. He had a load of stuff that had belonged to Sherlock. Just tat really. Nothing that even gets close to showing who or what he was. Stuff can't do that. Not physical stuff anyway. We've all got belongings and photos and furniture and books and... they're not who we are. They're just things we've accumulated over the years. They mean nothing.
前幾天Greg來過。他有一堆屬於Sherlock的物品。就是些雜物。談不上是能顯示他的為人或他的作為的東西。物品是辦不到的。反正物質是辦不到的。我們都有一些物品和照片和家具和書……但它們不是我們。它們只是我們經年累月堆積下來的東西。物品不代表什麼。

But then there was this DVD. It was a video of Sherlock recording a message for my birthday dinner. A bunch of us went to this restaurant in Soho. It was great, actually. Everyone was there. Mike, Harry, Greg, Mrs Hudson, the usual suspects. Except Sherlock. He didn't come because he was 'busy'. He wasn't busy, he just... sometimes he struggled to fit in. He couldn't switch off, couldn't relax. He just struggled with people, I think. Yet the video... it showed the other side to him. He was rude, yeah. Arrogant. Apparently lacking in anything resembling empathy. But I'd forgotten just how funny he could be. He was so charming. So... human. It's bizarre because most people would say he was the most inhuman person they'd ever met. But he wasn't. He was everything a good person should be. He'd just often say what he was thinking rather than lying to protect our feelings. Maybe we should all be more like that? Maybe we should all be more honest? Although maybe it was a good thing he didn't come to that birthday dinner...
可是裡面有一張DVD。那是Sherlock為了我的生日晚餐所錄的影片。我們一群人去了蘇活區的一家餐廳。那天真的很棒。每個人都在場。 Mike, Harry, Greg, Mrs Hudson，都是熟面孔。Sherlock除外。他沒來，因為他「很忙」。他不忙。他只是……他有時很難融入。他沒辦法關掉，放鬆不下來。他就是會跟人過不去，我想。但影片……展現出他的另一面。是，他很粗魯。傲慢。顯然缺乏任何類似同理心的特質。但我忘了他多麼有趣。他如此迷人。如此……人性化。這很怪，因為大部分的人會說他是他們所遇見過最不像人類的人。但他不是。他擁有好人的一切特質。他會說出他心裡頭想的事，而不是說謊來保護我們的情感。也許我們都應該像他那樣？也許我們都應該更誠實？雖然那次生日聚餐他沒來也許是好事……

And now it's time for me to be honest. I'm meant to be keeping this blog to remind me of the good times. I know it's meant to be healthy but what's the point? I need to properly move on. I need to put it all behind me and move on.
現在該是我誠實的時候了。我有意保留這個部落格，來讓自己記得那些美好時光。我知道那是為了健康的理由，但有什麼意義？我需要繼續過日子。我需要把一切拋在腦後，繼續過生活。

And I'm so tired of deleting comments from people who don't believe me. Who think all this is a lie. I know it was real. There are so many people out there who know that all this was real. They believed in Sherlock.
我厭倦了刪除那些不相信我的人的回應。那些人認為一切都是謊言。我知道一切都是真的。還有許多人也知道這一切都是真的。他們相信Sherlock。

And I've found someone. So I should concentrate on that.
而且我已經找到重要的人了。我應該把心思放在那上面。

（這裡的語氣怎麼那麼像摯愛已逝、須當憐取眼前人的感覺……orz）。


So this'll be my last blog.
所以這是我最後的網誌。

Sherlock, you bastard, wherever you are. Cheers.
Sherlock，你這個混蛋，無論你在哪。謝謝。

John.
John.

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